Personal things

I don't feel good....
At the moment I can't wait till the day is over...
My live is totally chaotic at the moment. and not possitiv.
I must learn for my final exams in May, but in my family the time stands still...
my grandpa has leukemia and will die during the next days.
He bring me up till I was 12 years. It's hard for me to see him so breakable and pale now.
Everytime when the phone rings at home or at work my heart hurts and I think "No it happend!"